It’s happening… Left Wrist Complete Arthrodesis
When you read the surgery scheduling form it seems so medically scary… Well not seems; actually is…
Description of Procedure: Left wrist complete arthrodesis, distal ulna resection stabilization: left thumb MP joint arthrodesis.
If you have zero medical background then you are probably wondering what this all means… Allow me to explain in the most elementary way: essentially I will no longer have a left wrist that functions normally. It will be fused in an extended fist position by a metal rod. Not the highlight of my week at all. Yesterday, the bomb was dropped shortly after getting a glimpse of my latest x-rays. There were sentences such as “your scaphoid is broken”, “your tendons are in great risk of rupture” , “your wrist will require a full fusion at this point” ,and “your thump MCP will be plated like the right hand.” The prognosis of my wrist has been a lingering question since my February 2013 visit. The question wasn’t what type of replacement or fusion was going to happen, it was when. I have been doing my best to safely secure my left wrist during all of my physical activities, but unfortunately, when the disease destruction has occurred, there is no looking back. My wrist started to fail shortly after my move to Calgary. The pain was intense; however I was concentrated on other aspects of my life. I often go silent when it comes to my pain especially when there are other things in my life that I am scared of losing.
There is no doubt that moving to a very cold climate was the worst decision that I ever made, especially knowing what the cold would do to my health. I can recall my x-rays prior to 2009 being not spectacular, but certainly far more white and bright then those I have today. My pain scale (On a scale of 1-10, 1 being no pain, 10 being the worst) has gone from a 2 or 3 to about an 8 or 9. Some days I’d even admit a 10. It’s difficult to cope when you feel like the universe is just not giving you a break. It’s even harder to go through surgeries alone. However, this is my life and the cards I have been dealt. I will make it through this and find a way to keep being and loving those things in my life that matter so much. I may not be the best in the eyes of the spectators, but in my eyes, I will always try and be the best I can. Accepting this disease has been the hardest aspect of my life. These days I really have no choice.
What I can be confident in is that I have the best hand surgeon on the planet. She and her staff are one of a kind. I am so grateful for Dr. Beth Purdy, Molly, Christy, and the woman that makes it all happen, Dajana Graham. They not only care that I am getting the best healthcare around, but they care that I am continuing to be the best Danielle that I can. I love this team more than they realize.
Make it Count by accepting the things you cannot change and appreciate the people who can add encouragement along in your path.